Okay, yesterday I was afraid to talk, to blog, to write. Chatting to another crafty lady today - we discussed that it makes my business real - I am no superwoman! I had this post on my heart, and I think it's time. Facebook is a great thing, it lets you keep in touch with people from your past - this is bitter sweet.
We went to a church for a good five years, a long time for this young family of mine. I am writing this as a means of forgiveness I think, a means for expressing what happens to many of us. Christians aren't perfect - why do we expect more from them? I don't think I expect much more, but I take one's word for what they are. I take words spoken to me as honest and true. If a friend speaks to me, I take it as truth. A 'Church' friend, or any friend - church or no church. Words like "You are the best friends, I can't wait for our children to grow up together".... and so on and so on. Maybe there is an altered motive of building numbers.
When Mr DCT was studying music I remember vividly a song "Loose Lips Sink Ships" from an ABC movie Come in Spinner soundtrack. I think this is something many of us need to be careful of. I know I am very whimsical, very flighty - I hope my words have not sunk friendships. Maybe they have? I'm not sure.
I know I miss many of you, what was, what could have been in friendship. The thing I find is, it was when we left a church. It was finished. Not HIS finished, but the friendship finished. Makes me realise why so many people dislike churches and the people in them. When we stopped going to church for family reasons, we did not stop being your friend. My heart has grieved. My heart believed your words. My heart had to look after my special needs children. How blessed you are to not have that pain. Maybe you have a different pain?
My thoughts, yep, I'm real. Not sure that is a great thing for a blog. But it is what it is and I needed to write it.
I had a beautiful moss collecting stroll at a new friends home - a lady I admire. She is what I would be if there were terms to trade yourself - you know what I mean. We discussed this same thing - leaving a church does not mean leaving a friendship. There is no fine line, and I get why people find Christians to be hypocrites, often they are! They are human and it still hurts, but I have to forgive. No-one is perfect, this happens to many. Just wanted to write and share.